Mk so if you know me you know that im UBER excited about school and the first along with the last are my fav! But today is the first day of my last year.... its kinda scarry and at the same time im very excited ... I just dont know what to think

This morning i was bouncing off the walls!! hahahah it was fun... the senior run was pretty fun but at the same time it was rather blah........

Idk thoughts comments concerns... all welcome!!

Ya know ya never realy think about about how much someone means to u until their gone ......  y is that y cant we celebrates someones life while they are here?? today i spent a good majority of the day talking who apparently im related to know but have no idea who they are ..... who would tell me things about either my dad or my aunts and my uncle kevin that would make me laugh and wish that ide gotten to know the guy alot better or that make me wanna get to know all my aunts and uncles alot better but the one thing that bothered me alot was that the only way to get all of these people together .... it just shows how much our society has become non family oriented......... i guess wut im trying to say is taht we should not only celebrate someones life because they die but because they are alive.....

smoocehs~B

OK so last night i had a really good time with tess and dan .... we went to nickis play.... as a surprize i had asked a bunch of people to come with to surprize nicki....yea that went ok.... but that has nothing to do with the title of my blog today.....

After the play we took dan to a party and tess nad i went out to eat and then we stopped by Jenny's house to see who was all there and to say hi so we stpped by adn we ay a bunch of people who i havent seen in a while and everyone said hi or at least noticed that i was there and said hi ... but megan so this is my white flag to megan i know that kt is not mad at me any more and i think that arek isnt either so megan this is me saying im sry to u and me saying that i tryed to talk to u but u and kt went shoppin in stead....so im leaving it up to u to contact me because i tryed and u apparently thought that i wasnt important enough for u so im sry for wutever it is that i have done but this is me letting u know that i am leaving it up to u to settle this ............

on a happy note.... our foot ball team is 10-0 (knock on wood) and plays again on friday

OK so just to clarify..... this is mostly for lourdes people......

• I didnt leave because i dont like all the people just some of them..... that doesnt include all of my friends!!!!!!!!!! I left because it was to stressful for me... the school...not the people!!!
• When i said that i was gonna come to all the dances..... i didnt mean it .... Lets be realistic.... PROM.... ive never been asked to a dance by a guy in my life wut would make this any different?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? and when u have dances i might have something else goin on so i couldnt make it!! i mean i know of other people from other schools who have gone to lourdes dances and nobody has a problem with it!!!
• And lastly i didnt abandon any of u ... im still here i just wont and cant see u on a daily basis.... if u call me i can hang out with u but if i dont know that ur mad at me or that u wanna hang out then i dont know anything..........

and lastly im sry if u feel this way about me but if i dont know or if i have to find out through other people that not only hurts me but it makes me feel like i dont matter to u then....

smooches~B

Ok so the past few weeks i have to appoligize ive been a frickin weirdo as usual but ...its been worse cuz as much as im TOTALLY excited for school this year im totally terrifyed and like and realizing how much im gonna miss people which isnt that big of a deal cuz im still gonna see them but like im just kinda scard...... i feel like im a freshman again..... i dont wanna go back there!!!! lol

well any way as most of u know a few weeks ago my brother threw a party..... well that was fun!!! and then this week is HUGE like like monday i had off and i went to Albert Lea  with Brianna, Crissy and Laura that was a blast ....but becky was bad...she spent more money than she should have ....

tuesday ...lol ......... i worked and i was really giddy cuz the night befor Brianna and Laura stayed over night and we went out cuz on our way back in to town Crissy wanted somehting to eat so we stoped in to Taco Bell on Broadway and we met these collage guys who wanted to hang out but ....then we had to switch cars and ....well it didnt happen but we did meet guys who wanted us to play naked twister with them ....they had croch rockets...err w/e their called ...that was kinda weird...and the girl with the hair that was alive!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

but yea the collage guys ended up calling me the next day when i was getting ready to do something.....cant remember wut but..yea something.... lol

so yea yesterday i went to Valley Fair with Tess, Nicki and Brianna after Nicki and Tess stayed over night and that was awesome..... i think we had a little to much fun at that perkins (nicki stay away from Turcky and Mellow Yellow for a while... it might not taste right !! lol that was hilerious!!!)..... and damn was it nice .... well the night before was a blast too!!!! .... i never thought id meet the Sexy Shriner!!! lol well now that we can marry off tess.... start planin for a white wedding everybody!! lol jp jp ha ha ha well .... its been a great week and i hope that the rest of it if its is as great as the beginning......

plan for the next 2 weeks ...... Cram as much fun as possible into the last 2 weeks of Summer!!!

on that note enjoy the lyrics!! lol

Awww Yah!
Billy’s at the bar, he’s been there all night
First ten beers he’s had, since her goodbye
HEY! HEY!

She left him broke, in his new truck
He don’t smoke, but he lights one up
Temporary fix, for his heartache
He’s hurting bad, but he’s feeling great

He’s on the dance floor yelling FREE BIRD!!

Singing off pitch but he knows every word
Grabs him a girl and he holds on tight
He’s chasing everything in sight
He’ll fall apart when he gets home
But right now his worries are gone
Life looks good, good, good
Billy’s got his beer goggles on
Hey!

Lot of drunks, get real mean
They’ll pick a fight, over anything
Billy wants to laugh, that’s why he’s here
You won’t see him cry, unless you spill his beer

He’s on the dance floor yelling FREE BIRD!!

Singing off pitch but he knows every word
Grabs him another girl and he holds on tight
Now he’s chasing everything in sight
He’ll fall apart when he gets home
Right now his worries are gone
Life looks good, good, good
Billy’s got his beer goggles……. on

He’s on the dance floor yelling FREE BIRD!!!
Singing off pitch but he knows every word
Grabs him another girl he hold on tight
He don’t see ugly
Through blood shot eyes
He’ll fall apart when he gets home
But right now his worries are gone
Cause life looks good, good, good
So good, good, good,
Life looks good, good, good
Billy’s got his beer goggles…….on

so im in kidna a pissed off mood so im gonna make a list of things that piss me off ...

1. catching ur friends hanging out with out u and them acting like they dont want u around...then again that could be a hint....
2. when people see u and dont respond.....like if they know u and they dont ....say wave back!!!
3. when people dont answer their phones BECAUSE they know its u
4. the stupid boys at work not doing their jobs and getting a raise for it!!
5. my dads inability to understand the mind of a teenage girl.....and to be able to keep up with conversation
6. my brothers amount of popularity and how he and his friends .....pretty much never fight!!

........well that was a shorter list then i thought id make but i think i will continue it later im gonna go watch a sad movie to make myself feel even worse!!

~B

You Know You're From Minnesota When...
The weather is usually 80% of your conversation. (only in the summer cuz of all the damn humidity!!)

When you say "down south" you're referring to Iowa. (well this is Iowa...sry kt)

You call highways "freeways." (its habit)

Snow tires came standard on your car. (alot of them do up here)

You've never taken public transportation. (i cant say thats true for me)

75% of your graduating high school class went to the University of Minnesota.(theres nothing wrong with that) 

"Perkins" was the only hangout option in high school. ( WUTS WRONG WITH PERKINS??)

You assume when you say "The Cities" people know where you're talking about. (wut eles would we be refering to?)

You can list all the "-dales." (i cant honestly say that i can) 

People from other states love to hear you say words with "o"s in them. (thats just crule) 

In a conversation you've heard someone say "yah sure, you betcha" and you didn't laugh. (i dont laugh at that)

You could pinpoint exactly where each scene in the movie "Untamed Heart" was filmed. (ive never seen it!!)

You hate the movie "Fargo" but realize you and your entire family have that same accent. ( the movie yes the accent im not so sure about)

You get mad at people who think Fargo is in Minnesota. (well they should know were the F it is!!) 

You know what Mille Lacs is and how to spell it. (well i do now!)

You have fish boiled in lye for Christmas. (no we dont!!)

You know what "uff-da" means and how to use it properly. (actually i dont think i do but i use it anyway)

You know the 2 sports-related reasons why we hate Dallas. (no i dont but if i ask my dad i would)

Nothing gets you madder than seeing a Green Bay sticker on a MN car. (OMFG I KNOW!!!!!!!)

The only reason you go to Wisconsin is to get fireworks. (thats tru!!)

You're a loyal Target shopper. (LOYAL!!!!!!!!!)

You've frozen your tongue on a metal handrail before. (that hurts buddy)

You own an ice house, a snowmobile, and a 4 wheel drive vehicle. (used to own a ice house but idk i think it got burnt down)

You wear shorts when it's 50 degrees outside in March, but you bundle up and complain in August when it goes below 60. (.....soooo)

You have gone trick-or-treating in 3 feet of snow. (thats when its the most fun!!)

You've not only walked across a lake, you've driven across one. (.....not yet buddy!!....*ponders* ahh the possibilities!!)

Everyone you know has a cabin or, at least, access to one. (....SO TRU!!)

You know that Lake Wobegon isn't real and you know who made it up, where they live, and exactly what you want to do about it. (....no i dont beleive i do!!)

You have friends who schedule their wedding in the middle of January without a thought about weather conditions. (...not yet but i think i have a friend who might)

You consider a six inch snowfall a blessing for "the cities" because it provides instant urban renewal. (lol....yea sometimes)

You keep the snow tires on your truck all year because it ain't worth taking them off for only two months. (i know people who actually do!!)

Your local Dairy Queen is closed from December through February. (its closed longer than that!) 

You believe the only REAL vehicles have skis in front and a loud motor under your seat. (the skis no the motor yes!!)

You consider snow banks to be "just another rough" on the golf course. (lol well if i played golf....maybe)

You have worn shorts and a parka at the same time. (wuts wrong with that?)

You were delighted to get a miniature snow shovel for your 3rd birthday. (...i probly was...i was crazy!!)

Your town isn't trying to be ironic when it plans a "winter carnival." (well if we had one then i dont think we would be trying to be ironic ...we just would be)

The temperature in March is above freezing for three days in a row, and you think it's summer. (..well getting there!!)

You laugh out loud every time you see a news report about a blizzard shutting down the entire East Coast. (HAHAHAHAHA well yea y wouldnt we)

You think happiness is owning a "piece of lakeshore." (well it would be.....is that weird?)

You never meet any celebrities except The "BODY" (the who?)

You know what and where "Dinkytown" is. ( i do?)

When you talk about "opener" you are not talking about cans. (....well yea!!)

You have refused to buy something because it's too "spendy." (maaayyybe once or twice but never three times)

You believe that the Vikings would have won four Super Bowls by now if they were still playing in Metropolitan Stadium. (DARN RIGHT THEY WOULD HAVE!!!!!!!)

You are convinced the Twins will never win the pennant because the owners are too cheap to pay the good players, so they all leave. (well... we cant deny the truth)

Your town has an equal number of bars and churches. (id have to say so!)

You grew up thinking rice was only for dessert. You think that ketchup is a little too spicy. ( WTF R YOU TALKIG ABOUT!?!?!?!?)s "full service" means filling your gas tank, washing the windshield, checking the oil and being friendly to the customers. (well yea wut else would it mean?)

Your gas station think

You (or your parents) voted for Mondale. (i beleive that my parents did. i, on the other hand, have no idea who the fuck that is!)

You've seen "The Rocky Horror Picture Show" in Uptown. (uptown?)

You know that everyone has a city preference -- Minneapolis or St. Paul. (well its tru its one or the other....)

You can honestly claim Germanic / Scandinavian ancestors, and have been known to say "ya" instead of "yes" (i can clame both and i do say ya over yes more then i know to do it)

Upon seeing an ocean for the first time, you say, "Hey! That looks like Lake Superior!" (maybe if id seen the ocean first but thats not how it happened ....)

You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends from Minnesota.  (....we share them at holidays....)

he he so i was having a pretty bad night but then one of my friends talked to me and we are planning on goin to a concert which totally makes me EXTATIC!!!!!!! but then she had to go away and she put this up ....

~*life is like a box of condoms no matter which one you pick  your still gonna get screwed*~

it cheered me up so .... live by that cuz not matter how much u say it isnt tru IT IS MO FO so accept it!!!

MK so warped tour was frickin awesome but like i didnt know alot of the bands ....but ive fallen in love with fall out boy ... it tends to happen when songs get stuck in ur head!! lol but yea this is who i saw and i love most all of them!!

1. All-American Rejects
2. Relient K
3. The Starting Line
4. Mest
5. Atreyu (from the next stage over)
6. A Change of Pace
7. Hawthorne Heights
8. My Chemical Romance
9. Matchbook Romance
10. Fall Out Boy
11. Billy Idol
12. MXPX
13. Dropkick Murphys
14. Senses Fail (one song-buried a lie)

so yea next year if i go back i will no doubt be listening to them alot more befor i go!!

YAY ERINS HOME TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK so i havent updated in a long time and thats mainly because A ive been uber busy and B last time i vented ( i love ya erin but ) i was told i need to think about therapy!! and while i think that at somt point in life everybody pretty much needs therapy .....

OK so in well 4 days i will be attending a musical celebration ...also knowen as WARPED TOUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and im really excited about that.... yea idk my life has been pretty exciting but at the same time really boaring like ive been goin out with my friends and we all always have a great time but like nothing extrodinary ever happens

well i guess thats not totally true cuz nicki had a birthday party for janna and it kinda flopped but then these guys came from rochester and they played their guitars for us and ....well i love it i wish that i knew a guy who would just come over and play for me....stupid boys!!

well thats all for me i need some beauty rest now...lord knows i need it!! lol smooches~B ;-)

k so one of my goals this summer was to be as happy as possible all the time so i would just push all the shit that bothered me aside and now its all getting to me.....i mean i can understand that being around someone to much then the little stuff gets to u but like everything i do isnt good enough ... maybe im just feeling sorry for myself but i really dont think so i mean ..... im a person too i have feelings too and sometimes i think that they are kinda over looked just cuz im not right there or it takes me time to get somewhere ........ i mean do people ever wonder why i drive so fast sometimes ........its kinda my way of screaming for help .....or like when i go and spend rediculious (sp) amounts of money on stuff that i really dont need ......... thats kinda my way of being like hello theres something wrong here ........

I think i made a huge mistake by transfering schools that all i have to say

B	Busy
E	Easy
C	Charismatic
K	Keen
Y	Yum

im not so sure about that easy part!!!

Your Gemini Drinking Style

You can drink without changing their behavior much. You're so naturally chatty and short-attention-spanned that it's just hard to tell sometimes. You amaze people by conversing with finesse and allusions, then doing something to belie an extremely advanced state of intoxication, like puking in your shoe. You possess the magic ability to flirt successfully (and uninfuriatingly, which is very tricky) with several people at once. You like to order different cocktails every round -- repetition is boring! You may create a drinking theme (like yellow drinks: beer, sauvignon blanc and limoncello) for your own amusement.

Your Signature Cocktails

Easily bored Geminis need some stimulation in their drinks -- those with two parts, like a black and tan (or just a double), are particularly appealing. Otherwise, you'll drink all over the map, ordering frou-frou drinks to add to you collection of cocktail monkeys or going for whiskey rocks because you're feeling rather noir. Gemini rules the herb anise -- home-infused anise vodka is sure to win you over.

Your Celebrity Drinking Buddies

Johnny Depp, Angelina Jolie, Kylie Minogue, the Olson Twins, Colin Farrell, Ice Cube, Natalie Portman, and Mr. T